mama. papa..........

in a sudden, i terigt kat parents i. really miss them so much. mmuuahh ! well, i will story psl dorang and anggap je abes kat sini okay. jomm !

mama i name Fuziah Bte Sadri. was born on 26th of November 1961. muke ade sket chinese+thai. but now dia slalu sakit semput. get well soon ma. act dlu and until now kitorang sgt senang brgaduh. sgt2 senang okay. bak kate my dad, klu i ngan my mom gaduh mmg ibarat perang dunia kedua beb. but i ngan die cepat cool. tetibe boleh tegur cam bese. magic kan kan? itu lah kuasa antara ibu dan anak tau. i love u ma. :)

papa i name Azhari Bin Abu Bakar. was born on 18th of April 1963. sgt handsome and good looking okay. he is policeman and sgt berani. well anak die pon same okay. so, papa i ni kind of ckp lembut jugak. compare to my mom yg panas baran. well, kne lah ade pro and contra right. sume ckp i ni daddy's daughter and yes i am. i love u pa. :)

kekalutan, kekusutan, kekeliruan ?

wahhh, 3 in 1 perasaan i arini. i pon tak tau lah. kenape i boleh jd cmni. i dah hilang kwan okay. omg !!! the worst thing paling i tak suke ni lah die. kwn baik i tau tak. i will miss all the sweet thing together. sgt sedih tau tak. tp nak buat cmne. die tak nak pham. i sgt tersepit antara cinta and kawan. tp smp ati die dah tak nak lansung dgr explaination i. takpe lah, i doa je life die happy. sbb klu die happy, i pon happy same. die mmg kwan yg baik, but i dah pon kehilangan die nak nangis pon ade. but keadaan yg sgt memaksa i utk i buat cmtuh. tp caye lah, dlm hati i ni tak terniat lansung nak buang die as my good friend. sbb i ni bukan jenis buang kwan okay. ohh God !! please lah. :(

Unappreciated !!!!!!!!!

hye korang. tak best nye arini (19/01/2011). pegi keje lansung takde mood tau tak. ape lah perasaan korang klu kite dah cube yg terbaik and umo pon muda lg kan kan? well, penah tak rse tak penah lansung dihargai?? i tgh rse lah skang ni. tension aje hidup i ni. but i pk i kan keje skang ni.

haa, ckp psl keje ni kan, i cadang2 nak tukar keje lah. tak tau lahh nak keje ape but bialah same or berkait ngan ape yg i amek kan. bru lah semangat sket. ni memanjang tak busy. tak challenging lansung. betul tak? hmm kesian kat i kan. mmg i ni anak dri kesusahan betul. pity to me.

Well, Hello 2011. :)

hahaha, i hope tak terlambat untuk i ckp Happy New Year utk korang sume. so, dah jadi habit lah kan, masing2 ade azam kan kan? and so do i okay. i nak LESEN !! so badly okayy. i kne jugak ade sbb my mom dah tak larat nak drive. so klu ade pape i boleh lah drive sendiri. kan kan? lagi pon i dah besar. dah 23 pon this year, so malu lah klu takde lesen lg. hehehe.

so ape plak korang punye azam eh? mcm2 kan yg berazam, tp last2 haprak jugak. hehehe. i harap sgt azam i this year tercapai, and klu tercapai mmg i happy gile lahh. azam utk next year pon dah ade just tak bape nak sure je lg. so i kne focus on this year dlu okayy.

so i harap korang serious dengan azam baru korang itu okayy. love u all ya. mmuahhh

Manusia mmg tak pernah puas. :)

well, manusia mmg tak penah puas dgn ape yg dorang ade. same lah mcm i pon sbb i ni manusia biasa. ade byk jenis org yg i jumpe setakat ni yg mmg sgt2 tak puas dlm hidup die. bile korang dah keje, then korang tau lah kenape i ckp manusia takkan puas. even yg pangkat besar2 pon tak penah puas ngan salary dorang. what do u expect haa? sedangkan dorang pon tak puas, apetah lagi kuli2 mcm kite ni kan? hahahaha.

berbalik ngan tajuk i td tu kan, bukan kat tempat keje je okay. even dlm pergaulan pon same jugak. cam dlm condition i ni haa, dah tunang and kawen but still nak berlagak cam org bujang. come on lah, time korang bercinta bukan main setia kan? hmm thats why lah i ckp tak bersyukur.

so think about it ya. :)

Scandal.

wow. klu dgr je ayat ni komfem korang terigt kisah2 korang dlu kan? igt best ke ade scandal ni? hahahaha. dari ape yg i nmpak lah kan hmm menyusahkan lagi ade lah. so klu korang rase comfortable ngan situation scandal tuh just go on aje okay. but i tau sume org ade opinion lain2. so depends korang lah eh. :)
jgn nak salahkan si scandal and org yg nak berscandal. must be something wrong with it. korang pk ah kenape boleh jd cmtuh. bile dah jd kat diri korang then korang rase cmne. so takmo lah pk bukan2 aje psl dorang ni okay. just be in positive thinking then pk lah sewajarnye ye. :)

duit, wang, money !!

wahhh ! mmg best klu kite ade bnd yg i sebut kat atas td kan ? well, mane ade bnd free skang ni wehh. act, i nk story kat korang bout my new life kat kl ni. sume pon pkai duit. ssh nye. then baru lah i tau cmne org ssh2 keje and habis duit cmtuh je.
tp kan, i ni jenis lantak lah. jnj i dpt ape yg i nk. tgh bulan mkn lah batu ke pasir ke. hehe. ntah lah. duit sume tuh mane lah ckup kan. mmg takkan ckup. lumrah lah manusia tak penah nk bersyukur ngan ape yg die ade. rase mcm dah ckup tp sbenarnye tak. ape punye manusia lah kan (i mean sume org lah. hehe)
well klu korang dgr psl kne taja ke ape ke nk slahkan sape sume ni jd pon ??? hmm tak boleh nk ckp sebelah pihak je pon. korang pk lah weh. klu nk slahkan sebelah pihak je mane dtg org2 nk taja tuh? so think wisely before korang judge sape2 even klu kite rase die jhat sekali pon bia Tuhan yg judge. kite ni ade kuasa ke nak ckp cmtuh? takde kan?? so jgn simply blame okay.
klu psl duit ni mmg lah boleh buat gaduh. suami isteri boleh bercerai, kawan boleh jd musuh, keluarga boleh berpecah and so on. sgt pathetic tp bnd tuh da jd kan. sume nye mmg boleh jd klu ade duit tp tak sume pon boleh sttle. around kite ni sume duit. nak lepas pon pkai duit, tak nak kne salah pon duit, nak lari mane pon duit, kencing berak pon duit. haish !!! sgt tension klu hidup ni duit je memanjang. sgt boring kdg2. but we have to accept the fact that money is very important. kat dunia ni mmg payah nak ckp. mcm2 dah kite tgk bnd yg da jd kan. so think bout it okay. :)

Buat lah hal sendiri wehh.

sshnye kalau ade org rajin nak amik tau hal kite ni. yelah hal korang pon tak nak jage, buat ape lah nak jage org laen punye hal. jgn ckp org lebih. nnti korang punye part lg teruk. i dah jumpe mcm2 jenis org. yg paling sedihnye byk yg Melayu tak reti jage mulut masing2. klu dah berjumpe komfem cite bukan2 yg keluar. nk ckp sesaje boleh je korang, but klu da obvious teruk ape tuh ?? tolong lah korang. mmg habit dah perangai cam gitu. even i sendiri pon kalau jumpe mmber2 lame story je ape yg ptt. but thats it lah. takde lah smp melarat2 and nak benci org tuh skali pulak kan. so korang pikir lah cmne eh.
mmg lah best cite psl org ni but takkan 24-7 pulak kan ?? hmmm. tak penat eh mulut korang ? so kalau dah habit korang cam gitu i tak boleh lah nk ckp ape. its just i nak bgtau tak payah lah. klu setakat borak kosong boleh lah ehh. and puls, jgn lah smp terbawak2 okay. :)

Dah lame tak update, macam2 nak story ni. :)

so sorry guys. lame gile tak update blog. quite busy here and pham jelah bru abes study and penat mencari kerja lah. so far now im currently at Malakoff company as Office Assistant aje. but before this jd front office assistant kat hotel. and it is syif time. agak penat but staff kat sane mmg best gile. siap buat birthday celebrate utk i. even birthday i lambat lagi time tuh. hehe.
so life bile dah keje ni sgt different okay. mmg lah korang tak payah pk psl assgnmnt dah but korang kne bijak manage cmne nk improve kerja korang tuh. kne pndai tackle boss. i mean bukan tackle gatal okay. hehe. so kat sini pon i belajar life org laen cmne. ade org lg tak best life die. sgt sedih and pathetic. but everybody mmg cmtuh kan. so tak boleh nk elak lah. hmmmm.
raya ??? boleh lah. cuti tak byk lah. so sume open house pon i takde. sedih bukan. hehe. tp takpe lah. i cari duit aje. bukan buat ape pon kan. so for those yg i tak boleh pegi so sorry eh. hehehe.
so thats all yg i boleh nk cite wat mase skang ni. pic2 raye ke while working ke akan di upload later okay. bye. :)

confused? keliru? doubt? arghhhh!

dunno which one i wanna start first. korang sure pnah rse bnd ni kan? rse keliru sgt2. same goes to me. byk bnd yg wat i jd cmni. antaranye:
1. smbung blaja ke keje?
2. klu smbung pon kos ape?
3. klu dpt keje jauh pon cmne?
4. klu mao smbung blaja pon mne je?
5. the important person in my life? who are they?
6. kenape dorang jauh dri i? wht am i doing wrong to u? tell me? i need to knw.

then dats the question which always playing around in my mind. still do not hve the answer ok. adoi. ssh la cmni. :(((

im losing my friends..!!

hmm. bnyi cam sdey kan. tp mmg pon. nape la org xnk kwan ngan i? wht am i doing wrong? ta wat slah pape pon ok. hmm. snang2 je dorang ni buang kwan kan kan? adoi. ape laa slah i. bia ahh. rmai lg mao kwan ngan i kan kan? i guess so. am i jerk? adoi. sshnye nk jwab. sume pon ngaku dye baik. tp xsmestinye kan?? hmm. i think so laa. arggghhh! stressnye wehhh.

gudbye KPMSI!!

yeay!!!! finally im finishing my diploma. huh! pnat gile wehh. until now cam ta caye i da abeskan sume nye. hmm glad to hear dat. but i hve to leave my sygs which are azira, saila and shasha. gonna mish them a lot!! even dorang kdg2 mmg irritating but lots of fun with them. ishh byk kot korang. mndi ujan laa. maen kjar2 tgh mlm. curi buah mngga makcik laa. adoi knangan sume tuh.
btw. thousands soryy guys sbb lme gile xupdate blog ni. mmg final sem bz gile vavi pnye. mmg hdap jelaa. mao abes kan. hhee. so skang ni currenty at home laa. goyang2 kaki. attend kenduri sedara mara. hehee. time ni laa mao attend wehh.
me? mkin gemok i guess. hehee. bese laa. kuat mkn da skang ni. xtau nape. adoi. tape laa. jnj i xnyusahkan sape2 kan?? whts more? hmmm. pape nnti i update ok. see ya! ;))

mcm2 mao story nih!!

sory babes!!! da lame i xupdate blog nih. i mish it so damn much. :(( but no worries k. i akn berusaha utk update dis blog as much as i can. which one will i wanna strt frst huh? dis semester i do hve a lot works. even dpt asgnmnt lmbat kan tp cm bz jgk la. huhuu. pity to my friends. kne jual brg kt org. sgt2 ssh but as a gud friend i spport pe dorang. hehee. hopeflly it works. huhuu. then ktorng gi english crnival. hehee. much fun at there. but still ta best. mybe sbb kt beranang kot. hehee. mmg la pnas + lpar sgt2. nsib baik la my mom ade kt sne. so dye ley tlong anta mkanan. kfc tuh. hehee.

GAMPANG!

I SGT MAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! i xtau la. whts happening to me. bodoh btul. kaki sakit. sume bnd pon rse cm xkene. stresss... lptop rosak!! argghh!!! nape bnd2 cmni jd kt i???? sgt bdoh ok.. nape i kne jd cmni? i xtau la. pe yg i wat slah ke???? perlu ke?? ngan ade jantan2 yg xtau malu. laki org yg gatal!! bf org yg mnggtal?? arghhh! korang ni jerk la. hina sgt i rse. pe igt bgus sgt ke?? bdoh. sial. babi. fuck. dumb asss. siot btul. damn!!!!!!!

here u go GIRL!!

hye 2010!! gudbye 2009. so i da start my new sem with my new spirit. dis year i nk abeskan study i ni. insyaAllah kan. so kt kolej cam bese2 je seme. tade pe yg mnarik pon. klas ngan org2 yg sme. but dis time same klas ngan saila and kak azi!! hehee. finally kan. da abes sem bru la sme2. but put tade. sdey jgk la. emm. but itas ok. im still feel dat put stil with us. hehee. so koe=rang nye life dis early year cmne?? mine quite ok. study mkin ssh. as usual la. mkin tough la. nk wt cmne. mne ade blaja mkin snang plak kan?? hehee. and da best part is i da gemok sket!! hehee. pipi tuh tmbam la sket. hehee. ala. nt da start blaja and byk asgmnt i akn mkin kuwos as usual. hehee. so pointer i pon agk ok la. but hve to work very hard on it. jgn nk maen2 da pasni. huhuu.

Daa 2009. welcome 2010!!

ska2. suda mao new year. hehee. but cbe kte muhasabah blk 2009. cewah! hehee. emm to me 2009 was great and was a sad year for me. why am i say it so because one of my DISASTER was out and she's gone. mmg sdey gile time tuh. almost 3 years i've been with her then dye pgy cmtuh je. mao ta sdey. one of my besties and a gud friend. she's a nice gurl.

then, wht else?? yeah. i dpt rmai sgt kwan bru. hehee. best2. dat da best part la. hehee. da worst part was i gduh ngan bdk batch i sndiri. do i care all dat?? hehee. i ta kesah lnsung. huhuu.

wht else?? i kwn ngan hsband org???? yg tuh mmg damn gile. pnipu plak tuh. i ta sngke kwn ngan org cmtuh. da la ta ngaku. ngok ngek btul. i wish i ta pnah knal lnsung ngan dye. act kan i ta mmilih pon kwn2 i tau. tp i cant accpt klu pnipu. sorok2 status. cam haram je. hehee.

in my stdy plak ok la. tade la trok sgt. pointer pon naik jgk la. hehee. ok la tuh kan? hehee. btw 2009 makes me feel more matured and gud gurl. bgus kan??

so wht gonna happen in 2010??? emm ntah la. i ska ikt flow je. hehee. naik ke trun ke same je bg i. yg pnting i kne grade ngan cmerlang. dats my promise to my parents. bole ke?? emmm.

feeling down sumtimes??

emm. arini cam pnat sgt. pgy 2 tmpat knduri. then trus jln2. hehee. pgy tkar hp angah la. pgy bundle la tp ta beli pon. then pgy umah mak tam. lpak sne lme sket la. hehee. then ajak kak haida. lme sgt ta jmp dye. ape lg klu dye da ade. snapping time la. hehee. as usual my sista and brother la yg poyo2 mao snap. cam2 posing da. hehee. klaka btul. then mkn kat mcd. hehee. it is so fun to be together with our family kan kan?? but korang pnah rse x ble korang rse down sgt2?? emm. i cam rse arini. pttnye i hepy je today. emm. do not whts wrong with me laa. but im still hepy ok. huhuu. then i edit2 la pic bg hlg mood down i tuh. huhuu. cam poyo je bnyi dye. hehee.

emm. keje kah stdy tros eh??

i knw dis is not da time i ptt dscuss bout dis. but i hve to ok sygs!! i confius nih. xtau mao further stdy or keje je dlu then i stdy blk. dlm ati i mmg mao frther stdy trus. but pk blk i hve to help my dad. cian plak kt dye. pnat dye keje. igt nk la bantu sket2. huhuu. i ni bkn ank yg baik but dis is my chance to help him. cmne eh?? dorang mstila tau yg i ni mao frther stdy i. but ntah la. i mmg confius skang. even i de 6 months to go. emmm. so complicated. huhuu.

damn!! xsdar diri ke kaw 2 hsband org??

i rse ni la kjadian yg pling bdoh jd dlm hdup i tau x!!! act i tgh kwn ngan hsband org!! da la ta ngaku plak 2. ank da nk msuk 2. who do u think u are huh?? kaw mmg cari nhas tau x!! cian kt wife dye sbb dpt laki yg cmtuh. tade rsponsibility lnsung. nk usha ank dara plak tuh. ok mmg dye sgt mude. sgt2 ok. bape umo dye ta pyah la i ckp kat sni. but he's too young. i rse brslah ngan brdosa sgt2 tau x. tp mmber i ckp its ok sbb i xtau. pasni mmg i rject trus any cll from him. i ta kesah mao kwn ok but nape msti tipu?? i mmg ta sangke kt dunia ni ade lg mnusia yg cmtuh. discusting tau x??? i swear to God that i ta pnah kwn ngan org cm kaw ni ok!!!

old skool mates???

hepy gile tau x. on 20th of december i jmp mmber skola lme i ok. ade i, anis, freza,fana and ayu. emm mmg la ta rmai but im hepy. they rily hve a lot of changes ok. da lme sgt i ta jmp dorang. then ble jmp 2 ktorang igt mao tgk muvie. but tade cite yg best pon time tuh. then decide lg finally jln2 at jj sban 2. borak2 la. ngumpat sket. gazet blk story lme2. hehee. klaka abes la. sbb yg pling nkal pon i la. hehee. so hepy. smbil2 mnum kt scret recipe ktorang pon cite la hal msing2. nk wtpe pasni. then decide ble lg mao jmp and make sure rmai la. bru la best. act kan yana ptt ade but dye keje plak. sdey btul. then ktorang lpak city park. snapping photos. as usual la. yg pling over mstila i. hehee. fana la yg bwak. hehee. i mish them so much. hope dat sweet time will always come to me.